Regretting him was like wishing you never found out love could be that strong. because if so, yes alex. touching him (was like realizing all you've ever wanted was right there in front of you) camrynkenobi. but thats not true. being bibeing who i am- it's so important to me and who i am, and by hiding who i'm with, it feels like i'm losing that part of me," he took a deep breath, tears threatening to fall from his eyes, "and i just can . june and alex get in a fight. This is just a preview! youre right, im sorry. left kudos on this work! i was talking alex! Work Search: i love you so bloody much it hurts. 2. june Please consider turning it on! congrats alex, proud of you bro, liam responded, pulling alex into some sort of frat bro hug. you were not asking for it. henrys eyes shot up, the happiness in them quickly replaced with worry once he saw alexs drooped frame. i know im not the best at showing my love, but that doesnt mean anything.. it was 10:47. way past the time he shouldve been in bed and asleep, but through the hushed shouts coming from the kitchen and junes sobs next door, sleep just seemed impossible to him. Please consider turning it on! the same barista coming around the counter after alex had sat down at a table, sitting right across from him. 3. nora henrys soft voice cut through the silence, what do you want love? his voice was nothing more than a whisper. Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in font of you. he was almost sure he did. that should be a series tbh. gotta let go alex fell asleep with his hands clutching his blanket against his chest, and some lotion june had rubbed on his cheek only a few moments before, making the injury sting more than he thinks it should. Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong alex slowly nodded before he felt henrys soft lips against him. Touching him was like realizing.. - YouTube 0:00 / 0:08 Touching him was like realizing.. Touching Him Was Like Realizing All You Ever Wanted Lyrics. sweetheart, where is this coming from? henry urged. you cannot possibly be getting upset over this! he couldnt pinpoint the exact emotion, but if you asked alex he would probably say tommy looked almost disgusted in him. i could never ever be mad at you for that, becausei love you.. alex turned away from liam, throwing his head up towards the ceiling, feeling all the tears rush down his cheeks. it was a habit he took up the night his dad had left him, and he had nothing, and no one to turn to. alex please. its alexs and liams graduation. by now alex was aware of a few things. he picked at the wood table, small pieces falling to the ground. it all happened too fast for him to catch up, all he knew was he mumbled out a stop against her lips. yeah, anything, alex whispered, more or less breathless, promise youre not mad at me? he asked. what? alex looked into his eyes, the joy in his eyes from before now replaced with shame. liam always claimed he just wasnt ready yet but alex did not believe he would ever be ready. The original title of the song is Red. see, you know i love you, and i cant believe you would ever doubt me about that. wishing you never found out love could be that strong is that what you want to hear? are you single? he inwardly cringed at the question. he tried not to dwell on it, but he believed if june had found him dead rather than black out drunk, she would be so much more relived. he was only partially aware while the principle gave a speech. tommy skateboarded, played the guitar and drums, and was way to occupied being the cool kid on campus to worry about his studies. Notes: (See the end of the chapter for notes .) henrys eyes shot up, the happiness in them quickly replaced with worry once he saw alexs drooped frame. he immediately pushed his arms to wrap around himself, letting his tears fall freely, sobs shaking his shoulders against the couch. he pushed himself up off the ground and tried to hug his mom, but he was simply just shoved at least a foot away. alex met tommy his first year at college at a bar. henry would hate him. tears silently ran down his cheeks at the feeling of comfort. if alex didnt feel the pleasure he felt he should have in this moment, he doesnt tell anyone. one second he was thinking about the barista, and then the next moment he was thinking about how henry would hate him for it. he heard the door to his room close gently, and the sound of heavy footsteps move down the stairs. 3. nora trying to know somebody you've never met how much longer do you need to discover yourself. as well as touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you; memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song; fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer; regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong [x&x] im so sorry. nora doesn't let him talk about it. 3. nora theres a feeling alex cant find when hefinallygets the comfort hes been waiting for all this time. after that the rest of the names called went by relatively fast. to everyone else hewassingle. she didnt stop. the moment we have all been waiting for. you did not deserve this, at all. all he knew was that once he heard the words, fine then leave, see if i fucking care leave his moms mouth, he had to do something. being bibeing who i am- its so important to me and who i am, and by hiding who im with, it feels like im losing that part of me, he took a deep breath, tears threatening to fall from his eyes, and i just cant do it anymore. hi, is this seat taken? alex didnt even get a second to respond before she continued, im jordan, we have english together. he truly did not care about the girl sitting in front of him, all he really cared about was finding liam. he was at the age where everything in his life shouldve been so perfect. it wasnt a big deal. in all honesty, alex didnt want to do what tommy wanted from him, but he didnt want tommy to be mad at him. but he just couldnt stop. it was his last first day of high school and it was so important to him. henry would hate him. ?also, this is me projecting onto alex. Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. he had ran out of the coffee shop and all the way back home to the brownstone is probably less than 5 minutes. Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with. Until it happened again and again, which wouldnt be a problem if it werent for Steves long hidden and ignored feelings for Tony. he felt a feeling in his chest, almost like the feeling he got when he was gonna cry. Please consider turning it on! if alex didnt feel the pleasure he felt he should have in this moment, he doesnt tell anyone. i guess im just worried, but im sorry. 3. nora hes assuming he said something because thats what henry did. regretting him was like no. i just dont think i can do this anymore liam- i love you so much, but its so hard. all he knew was that once he heard the words, fine then leave, see if i fucking care leave his moms mouth, he had to do something. i love you sweetheart, he smiled, but quickly turned to a frown when tommy pulled away from his touch, let me show you, please. Summary: 5 times alex was rejected the touch he needed + 1 time henry gave it to him. you areselfish,you are afuck up,youruin everythingand it was your fault things didnt work out with james, okay, june emphasized every insult with a shove until alex was practically out of her room. which was definitely way to fast. he immediately leapt off the stage, pushing his way through the crowds of people, taking as large of steps as he could to make it over there. the argument was promptly finished with a resounding slap echoing through the house. The song name is Red (Live cover). tip: katekyou "alternate universe" sort:>words, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. he didnt care about that right now. he let a few of his tears fall, abruptly looking away, violently wiping at his eyes. you cannot possibly be getting upset over this! i just don't think i can do this anymore liam- i love you so much, but it's so hard. Loving him is like trying to change your mind. touching him was like tip: "sherlock (tv)" m/m NOT "sherlock holmes/john watson", Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. now youre crying, are you serious? alex took one look in henrys bottomless blue eyes before collapsing into the nearest chair, cries bubbling out of him. the moment we have all been waiting for. 3. nora missing him was dark gray all alone i guess im just worried, but im sorry. starts and ends within the same node. it was then he realized he had never stopped his mumbles of stop and please and no.. dont leave, please dont leave us- you cant leaveme, please.. which was definitely way to fast. henry im sorry. noNO, he took both his parents by surprise with his shout, but when neither of them spoke he continued. he pushed it aside and went on with the rest of the day as it shouldve gone. believe it or not, i dont spend all my time around you just because i feel bad for you, he mumbles, his tone suggesting in a way that he doesonly hang around alex because he feels bad for him. . Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to . he didnt deserve that comfort. he made a brief list in his mind. Ending so suddenly. i understand alex. it was uncomfortable and left an uneasy feeling in alexs stomach. 4. liam alex stayed with tommy for another full 2 months before june forced alex to break up with him after hearing one of their fights during holiday break. youre right, im sorry. he threw the door open, staring at henry who sat at their dinner table, the table all set with two plates filled with food. he cocooned himself in his blankets, the energy of his sobs tiring him out, and carrying him off to sleep. forever, henry confirmed, and always., READ THIS LISTENING TO LOOK AFTER YOU - THE FRAY!!! alex has a horrible day at school. he didnt know. the only feeling worse than lying about him and liam was the feeling of jordans lips on his in the next second. We bring you the song's Touching Him Was Like Realizing All You Ever Wanted Chords sung by Taylor Swift. he moves towards alex, putting his hands around alexs bicep. Rica_1, GAYzinha, noirink, starryjjk, diealone, WitchLeona, BlazingPenicls, Weedy, Linctavies, Bibi_J, Bme2018, pjoandmarvel, Mar_imar3, m00ns0ng, mihmih, Cro_wns_grz, L_ax, Queenbeea, arseniccoffeecups, allftg, Fraise_et_citron, Dreaming_realities, t_eokii, josieisntit, Nonbinary_simp, Avacados19, CricketCat, yesits2am, HarleighJean1822, AtrociousRhythm, Goddexxx, recordender, swimmerwimmer, missreader, ClayNotFound52, Gazing_at_stardust, Alex_the_alien77, HeartStopperxCheckPleasexRWRB, piiinson, Sjmoon, jak_tynatozni, AlRe, steelrosealchemist, TacoBellBanjo, allezallezaudray, olivia_grace2003, 24_oz, underoosstark, grey17, Itsthemaze, and 151 more users he just couldnt help it, never getting the feeling of comfort in moments like these, and all he could do in turn is be angry at the world. sure henry hugs him on a daily, and he holds alex when theyre sleeping, but its never like this. he never meant to get so angry. was he crying? he looked around briefly for liam, but instead he was greeted by a girl, he saw by the juniors days ago. Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met. this character is very much based on someone from my real life, so yeah, enjoy!! she continued to kiss him, despite the unrequited attention. he was sorry, and he stated so multiple times but it apparently was not good enough for june. memorizing him was like tip: katekyou "alternate universe" sort:>words, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. im not mad, i was just saying i didnt appreciate how you were flirting with that girl basically the entire night, he argued back. and realizing there is no right answer alex glanced at the dinner now abandoned, now cold, sitting on the table, i ruined your plans for tonight, he croaked, looking up at henry with wet eyes. it is super unlikely that the people in alexs life did not hug him on a regular basis, but im a sucker for angst so. as soon as she got there she went off on a tangent about how horrible her day was. yeah yeah red thats why she kissed meshe wouldnt have just- just done it? henry gave alex a look he could not read. you know thats not what i think, i never said that-. congrats alex, proud of you bro, liam responded, pulling alex into some sort of frat bro hug. as well as liam i know how hard it is for you- really. it was then he realized he had never stopped his mumbles of stop and please and no.. he couldve cried on the spot. tip: austen words:10000-50000 sort:title. cause loving him was red forgetting him was like i messed everything up, and now youre mad at me. thatsamebarista throwing herself at him from across the table. I NEVER ASKED YOU TO WORRY ABOUT ME! he knew his argument was weak and invalid, but really all he could do was get defensive. theres a feeling alex cant find when hefinallygets the comfort hes been waiting for all this time. Its only rational to stop whatever theyre doing, but what if someone helped Tony realize that he may have feelings as well? go to sleep alex.. the night was promptly finished with june showing alex how horrible of a boyfriend tommy was. it just feels likeit feels like you just dont really care about me; like youre using me, his voice hushed, practically an inaudible whisper. oh red a little while did turn into 45 minutes but neither alex or henry quite honestly cared. but loving him was red . what hes missed goes all the way back to when he was too young to even think for himself. i'm not the best with love either, i was raised in a loveless household. he was absolutely heartbroken. tip: hetalia f/f sort:kudos, 5 times alex was rejected the touch he needed+ 1 time henry gave it to him. im sorry.. and that was it. he let a few of his tears fall, abruptly looking away, violently wiping at his eyes. he didnt care about that right now. #Touchinghimwaslike #tiktokUS #TikTok #SlowedSounds#tiktok #tiktokUS #tiktokUKI HOPE YOU ENJOY MY VIDEOS -I don't own this content i just collect it on tikto. he pulled them up over his head, covering his ears, letting out soft sobs into the silent air. but loving him was red. tip: "sherlock (tv)" m/m NOT "sherlock holmes/john watson", 1. ellen and oscar ill do it for you.. he heard the door to his room close gently, and the sound of heavy footsteps move down the stairs. he looked around briefly for liam, but instead he was greeted by a girl, he saw by the juniors days ago. 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